Miracles: Work with New Area

Another blessing July is about my research. I never imagined before that I will get the area for research. But, God took His parts to me again.

As doctoral student, I must have research area since my first coming here. Honestly, I came to Akita University without any answers from any companies yet. I just felt so confused because I didn't have any possibilities. Some tried to help me but the place given was taken by other students. Then, I only kept my silences and waited from other possibilities. My previous supervisor stories about Indonesia companies made me little bit scared. I didn't know why they can't give any permissions to publish a publication. In other hand, foreigner who used the same area can do it! Does it about Indonesian problems? I don't know. Please don't ask me. I am not CEO yet now.

Okay, time goes fast. I got another chance. I said thank you God for giving me hope. Never lose your hope. Miracle happened. By a far friend, I got a contact to a gold company. Actually, I didn't know who he was. I just tried to contact and told him that I am student who need research area. I surrendered to God about everything. My man also said don't be afraid, our God is bigger than anything. Day passed day, I got answer! Yes, an answer! They said we are welcome and wait for your research proposal. Is it a dream, God? No! God answered my pray again. He proved to me that we need to be patience and to keep our faith to Him.

After all, I sent all proposal and my purposes about the area. Then they took it as process. They said that I needed to wait because I am the first oversea student in their area. They open the chances to me to do comprehensive economic geology. It is very awesome! After around 2-3 months, exactly in July, I got agreement from them. They are very warm welcome to me. I am grateful to God! In my stress, He never leave me. He called me and said to pray.

He is the biggest. He does his part until now. I am preparing now for my research. I hope I do the best for Him.

Yes, keep your faith in God!

Open campus: Welcome to Economic Geology!

Today is another new day. My campus has special activity today. We do open campus today. The purpose of open campus is to introduce our new faculty. Yes! My department becomes new faculty named Faculty of International Resources Science. Our brand new faculty is part of new institution later. Our department will be new institution later as International Resources Science. 

In this chance, we introduced to high school students from many school and public. We have 6 laboratories in this department. Of course, one of them is us, in economy geology laboratory! Please come to Economic Geology. 

We are very happy to introduce our self to public. Hopefully, there will be many students enrolled this lab after being Akita University (AU). Our lab theme is sulfide minerals. My Professor bought some samples to be shared as as gift. We have pyrothite, sphalerite, pyrite, and chalcopyrite. Actually these are main presents for public related to the theme. They only need to fill the questionnaire and take randomly the mineral name in the lucky box! We don't only have sulfide minerals, but also some others as consolation present, like varieties of quartz, topaz, ruby/corundum, alamandine, garnet, fluorite, and malachite. 

Please fill the form and take your lucky prize.

Take your minerals!

They queued up for minerals. Cool!

Many people came and had their own lucks. Some of them get the sulfide and ruby! Cool. We are very welcome to children too. Many children came and took their presents. They looked so happy! It is very nice to introduce what minerals are. Their parents were also exited to have minerals. People said "Sugoi" many times. They were very happy! "Sugoi ne.." People enthusiasm amazed me. They queued up and waited to get their lucks. Not only giving minerals, we also offered to introduce some activities related to our lab and to train how using microscope. Unfortunately, these were not interesting more than having your own minerals.

Look! Some kindergarten students love to take the prizes.

Children are also happy to take their present. 

Around 2 pm, we finished! There were almost 600 mineral packages shared! It is sugoi! Then, how about other lab stands? Please don't ask. I don't have enough time to come and to know. We were very busy to serve others. I felt that God answered my pray. Yes, many people came to know our lab. 

You can try the microscope too.

Please take your luck. Dozo!

Miracles: Revolution of me

Looking for all memories in my computer, I was found myself in several photos in different years. I am growing up so differently in every year. I feel that my life is never the same in years. Every year has their own stories about myself. I guess it is process of learning. You will never what you will be in the future. What you know is you have bright future. 

Now I have better smile, doesn't it? 

As my man always said to me that your environment will show who you are if you don't stand in your foot. I did before. I looked very different in past three years. I changed lots. I feel more cheerful and thankful now. Even my mouth still always bad in last two and half years, but I am feeling much better. It is like God is giving me a real happiness in my life. I did lots problems compared to beginning, but I do more cheerful now. I feel so free and blessful. I guess that everyone can see from my smile. In the row top, all photos are from 2008-2010 or until I met him. Then other three photos are now after being his. I feel much better with myself.

I believe God give him to help me understanding myself, not destroying my life as I did before. I was fragile, more fragile than now. I've tried more than 5 times to suicide. I was desperate and many depressions. No one knew it. I never understood what my life was. I only knew that I got lots pressures directly and indirectly from my environments. I was lucky because I still had my small community from church when in senior high school. I had my pastor to talk and to be strengthened. After entering college, I was alone! I might have lots friends but I can't feel real love from every body. I just blamed, pushed and destroyed myself. I did alcohol and smoked much. Never imagine before! I loved to have it. It accompanied me to release this stresses. They went for while, but came then. My best friends are my witnesses. Everyone can ask them. They try to help me, but I never wanted to be helped. I was too stubborn to believe anyone. I never knew how to believe others or how to know who really cared. I had lots fool experiences about it. One of them was almost to put my friend endangered. I have tried to suicide by riding motor bike in high speed at that moment. My fault was I brought my friend. She tried to accompany me. God still kindly saved me and her! That was the first and the last I did to endanger people with my problems. I couldn't write more. It is too many foolishness and much hurt. Now, everything changes! All are past now! All are past now. Yes my past. God changed me. 

Everything changed since He is here, when I tried to talk to Him even I never felt something. I prayed but I was mad. I prayed but I never felt that I was. It was very difficult. But, God never give up to me! God sent me him and others surrounding me. We have different personalities. We have strong will in common only. God use our personalities to change both of us. We suffer many things in this process. God let people surrounding me to be His hands too. He changed me with many processes. It is hard processes, but He say that he never leave me. Then He always proves it to me. Now I am still in His process.  He never said it will be easy, but He said that He never let us fall down. We proved it! I proved it! One by one problem passed as one by one problem also came. In this way, we learn to accept and to trust Him. Your God has more than much power to change everything as long as you believe! Just believe! I do lots problems now, but no suicide or alcohol or smoke as my choices to solve it. It is much better to take time to cry or to keep silent, but the best is to pray! He is always here, in our heart. Our distances to God is as far as our pray. 

Now, my life is changing. I have much better smile, doesn't it? 

It is very beautiful when I can say thank you God for all problems. Thank you God for everything. It is very amazing because He saves me! He saves us! He sacrificed himself to save the one like me. He saved my life, our life. 

It is named as process. At the end, everything will be beautiful in His hands. Say to God, 

"I surrender, God. What ever it will be, let Yours."

I am not the same person anymore. I wrote this to share how miracles work in my life. It is my story. I believe everyone also have their own miracles. It is only about how we feel it and believe. God has His own plans to everyone.

Open your heart, listen to His words and do the miracles. 

Miracles: "You never know!"

Selamat datang di Juli.

Rasanya sangat terlambat untuk mengatakan salam kenal atau selamat berjumpa pada Juli, tetapi inilah kesempatan lainnya yang akhirnya diri miliki untuk mengatakan apa yang terjadi pada kehidupan diri dalam beberapa minggu ini selama Juli. Salah satunya cerita berikut ini. Bahagianya mempunya Tuhan yang hebat. Cerita ini tidak terbatas agama apapun. Siapapun boleh saling membagikan mukjizat dan kehidupannya. Diri membagikan pengalaman bersama Kristus yang tidak pernah berubah dari dulu, sekarang dan selamanya. Diri percaya! 

LUAR BIASA!!!
LUAR BIASA...dan LUAR BIASA.

Here the story!

AMAZING. AMAZING. AMAZING!!!

God is amazing! He did many things in right time and right ways. You will never know how He want to design. Yes, God is an architect. His plans never fail.  

I had lots of problems faced in July. First week of July, my admission and tuition fee exemption results finally released. Thanks to God, I got free tuition fee. But, problems came from admission fee. I had to pay around 280,000 yen. It was much! No discount for my admission fee. I felt down at the moment. Then, I realized something. God asked me to pray! I prayed and talked to Him. I was confused how to pay this lots of money. We still owe to other before, but now have to pay another bill. I was very mentally dropped. God did His ways to me. He just asked me to pray. He said "believe me, child". After praying, he gave me fully peace. I didn't know why my feeling changed drastically. I felt much and much better. I believed that He was doing something to me. I never knew before what will happen. 

Next days come. I was called by my Professor. He asked me about the results. He just asked me, "did you have money to pay?". I said, "honestly, I didn't have, but I will save my money and pay as soon as possible. You don't have to worry." I answered the question with smile. Since the praying, I was very happy everyday even there was problem faced. I just believed that God will help me. My Professor answered, "Okay!"

Another day passed, God did His ways again. My Professor asked me again when I came to ask his sign for my next semester tuition fee exemption, "How's your admission fee? Did you pay it?". I answered the same one before. He said "You're better to pay before applying another tuition fee exemption." I said, "I can't pay now, but I still have time to pay before the deadline. I was saving my money to pay." Miracle came! God had my Professor as His hands. My Professor gave me cash money to pay admission fee! "Please, this was for your admission fee." He said to me while giving the money. It is very very amazing!!! He answered my pray. He did His part. 

Another miracle in this July. I never expected this way before. Why? It is very rare if your Professor or Lecturer pays for your admission or tuition fee. I am new student here. But, He did it to me. He used my professor to answer my pray. 

He never let me down. He never let me feels alone. He never lets me cry. He has lots of ways to answer your pray. I did experienced that feeling so heavy to pray because I feel so shy to God and so lazy to talk about my problems. But, leave it! Leave it! God has bright future for us. 

His plans are not harmful, but blessful! God has bright future for us. 

"Sebab Aku ini mengetahui rancangan - rangan apa yang ada padaKu mengenai kamu, demikianlah Firman Tuhan, yaitu rancangan damai sejahtera dan bukan rancangan kecelakaan, untuk memberikan kepadamu hari depan yang penuh harapan." Yeremia 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a futur and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

Just always remember:

"I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13. 

Spirit July

Such a long time not to update the blog. July almost goes out. We welcome you, August. Me and my blog are very warm welcome to bring you into our life now. 

Life goes very fast. Every single days change and open many new facts. The only biggest fact is Jesus is the biggest one! He does everything extraordinary ways and time. July gave many experiences, even until now. It is very impressive. I am doing many things because of His goodness to me. 

Yes, Me do have lots problems. I against people because of my choices. I stand for my life choice. Then people refuse to understand it. I asked God. He is answering me in beautiful way. I know that I am never alone. People said I am too stubborn and ashamed, but they never want to know how my life is going. Am I too stubborn? Yes I am! But I do choose my life. I will live for my life, not others. People always say that we can't live alone. "Alone" doesn't mean that you live as what people design for. We are human. We have lots of story to change and to understand our selves. 

Why we have to define other people life? They have their own faith and responsibilities for it. Being human is being responsible to life. 

I am what I am. July is teaching me in the big ways. God is bringing us in His hands' ways. Why we refuse to pray? 

He always open His hands for you! Never leave you alone. 

There is always light in darkness.